Sometimes when you’re hanging out with someone and u feel drained afterwards
it’s not always
they were stealing your energy
energy vampires so to speak... Sometimes it’s also a percentage of... you, holding yourself "together" whilst you are hangin with them.
Holding yourself "together"
holding your feelings in
that takes tons of energy.
You are hiding your true feelings behind a mask of everything is fine
I can't tell you about this
or act like this
What does it mean to be humble???
Is there apart of our collective belief system that tells us that humility is weak? Unsuccessful...?? Bound to struggle and beg??? And what is the result of this belief around humility...
is it connection? Loving community?? Those moments (rare!!) when I have experienced humility .... nothing compares .... i will spend every second of my life reminding myself to submit to humility When I can really let go of the struggle to prove myself and
don't rush relationships....
(even friendships or what could possibly turn out to be unfriendships...) why do we do that? Why do we wanna know....
"where this is going
and what is this for
and and and....are you WORTH IT?"
before the relationship has even had time to MAKE A STORY OUT OF ITSELF. the story of how things happen is the juice and excitement of relationships. bumps and glitches / burns and bites included. let your relationships percolate and gestate and unfol
you know how it's fun to hang out with a bunch of people
if you really wanna get intimate and get to know someone you need to spend quality time together... just the 2 of you?? I think that about myself. Alone time is not about being alone...it's about intimate time with myself so we CAN GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER.
How do I expect to know you ,Jane Calm, if I don't devote a lot of TIME AND ENERGY learning who you are?
what you like and don't like
what you are afraid of
The Art of Letting people avoid you. The art of offering all the communication and then dropping it and seeing if they will pick it up. The art of feeling close to someone and allowing them to not want it back.
The art of trusting that somehow....they are right....Just as right as you are in wanting to The art of not making it mean you're not worthy.
The Art of Letting yourself love without needing to experience it in physical time RIGHT FUCKING NOW The art of knowing you