YOU, friend, have been a super dick to me
but I will not cut you off in my heart.
I will work steady and constant to not cut you off in my heart.
because that would be saying I don't love u anymore and I know that I do.
Instead of protecting myself from you
by cutting u off-and TELLING YOU OFF- in my head all day long...
thereby declaring emotional etherical warfare...
Instead I will let the complexity of human love envelope me
wash over me
moment to confusing -agonizing- gnawing moment
The tragedy of unraveling and truly understanding what it takes to be
I will let the pain of loving u meet the joy of knowing u
I will let them have tea together inside of me
talk it over and console each other
And eventually at the tea time table
They will sigh and admit that they can do nothing but wait and get to know each other
The love and pain I feel for u
I will not cut u off in my heart and mind
The soldiers of REVENGE and POWER HUNGER will knock on the door
but no you can't come to tea with the pain and the love
Because even though it feels REALLY FUCKING GOOD for awhile
To be justified and PISSED
In the end it only serves to make me
a liar ( cause it says I don't love you)
and a bully ( I contemplate how to make you pay)
and I don't want to live in a world with either so I must accept the pain of loving you
Right along side with the joy of knowing you
and that, my friend, is how to become an angel.